I have amazing super powers, I can be in two places at
once. Although it sounds impressive, it
is actually a character defect that I’m working on correcting. Today it happened so quickly I didn’t realize
that I left my body. I was driving my
daughter to school, listening to her sing her favorite Taylor Swift song when
my friend ‘worry’ lifted me right out of my body and took my mind down a far
away road. All of a sudden I’m turning
into the school when I realized that I couldn’t account for the past 4
minutes. My super powers had robbed me
of that one thing I can’t get back, time.
My goal today is the same as yesterday, to start being
present in my life. To stop thinking
about the past, stop thinking about the future and stop worrying about what is
out of my control. It’s kind of like the
serenity prayer, “God grant me the wisdom to accept the things I can not
change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the
difference.” When I live my life by that
prayer I find that I am present more often.
The momentary lapse of time disappears and I find that I actually feel
the sun’s warmth through the car window, hear my daughter singing and feel my
soul and my body connect.
My latest super power challenge is how to stop my mind from
wandering from my body. I have found
that for me stopping this mind trip before it goes to far is key. I tell myself to leave those thoughts, leave
those worries and take a big deep breath.
When I concentrate on the breath, I have to be present. I then tell God my worries, my hopes, my
concerns and leave them with Him. You
would think that the God who created the universe, who cares for the lilies of
the fields and the birds in the air would be the best qualified to care for my
life. Yet, I find that by not being
present in my life I am actually trying to do His job. Not being present robs me of the joys that
God has given me. Not being present robs
me of being there to witness my daughter growing up.
Maybe this sounds extreme to you, but in my gut I believe
that not being present robs God’s given joy from my life. That is why my super powers really aren’t so
super after all. My working wish is that
I could transform myself into being super present.
Xo Melissa
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